The past couple of years have been challenging for me to say the least, there have, however been many positive changes in my life. I’ve become more involved in the organizations I’ve joined at my school which has allowed me to make more friends; at the end of January I went on a tinder date ( I know shocking right?)and in turn this resulted in an ongoing 4 month relationship, with which I couldn't be happier. I also got a job that I actually don't mind on the side of going to school, studying something I actually care about. So you're probably thinking, well if all of this great stuff is happening to you; why are you writing about it in such a tone?
Well, I’ll tell you something; two and a half years ago when my dad passed away from leukemia I went through such a hard time processing it and ended up throwing myself into pursuing the career path that my dad and I had always talked about, majoring in economics then going on to law school for business law. I pushed aside what I wanted in life and just focused on making everyone else happy for so long until I reached a point where I just thought to myself,”wait this isn't making me happy and I probably will never be as successful as my dad was because he did what made him happy.”
So I decided to be a bit selfish for once in my life and did what made me happy in both my personal and school life. I changed what I was studying in school and actually got involved with activities at school which I enjoyed. Making these little changes ended up making such a huge difference in how I felt about myself. My anxiety improved, panic attacks have become less frequent and my depression has disappeared about 99% of the way. The moment I started putting myself first and realizing that I deserved to be happy was when all of these positive things started happening to me. I am happier with my life than I’ve been in a long time and I credit all of this to being a bit selfish sometimes and putting yourself first. Once you believe that you have the ability to create the life that you actually want, then everything will start to fall into place for you. Like Justin Bieber says, maybe you should go and love yourself. (*wink*)
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